It’s 2022, Mother Fxckers!

Hey stranger… Yup, it’s me. I’m baaaaaacccck! And I know what you’re thinking: Love, Autumn was another one of “Autumn’s Projects” forgotten, dismissed, and in the back of my mind’s filing cabinets. I’ll accept that. I will admit, I do have a tendency to start things that I don’t finish for whatever reason. But it wasn’t like that this time!

The explanation is simple: 2021 was a hard year. Point blank period.

You may recall my last post from March of 2021. I was in a place where I took a chance to stop being so emotionally closed off.

I specifically talked about overcoming hurdles that come from denying oneself the opportunity to be vulnerable and choosing relationships that uplift you. You remember, the one where I mentioned that I was currently exposed to someone who was showing me how it felt to be supported, loved on, and all that good jazz?

Well, after that, some hurdles came. Not just with the relationship, but with a lot of areas in my life (professionally, personally, financially, you naaaaaaame it!). I was taken for a spin, literally and figuratively.

To give you an idea of what my 2021 looked like, here are my highlights:

• Earned a promotion and celebrated 5 years at my place of employment

• Introduced the BDSM lifestyle to my partner in crime, and began exploring that side of Us

• Ventured on my yearly sisters trip to a city I’d never been to where she packed up and left while I showered

• Experienced extreme burnout, calling out more times than I ever had in my life

• Got into a one-vehicle car accident and took money out of my 401k to repair the damages

• Took my boyfriend on a birthday trip and found out on said trip that he cheated on me

  • … I cheated, too

• Had a cervical cancer scare - get your Pap smears, ladies!

• Decided to take my financial health seriously and made a plan to tackle debt and start investing

• Welcomed my brother into my home which unfortunately led to a visit from the authorities

• Reconnected with a family member from over 10 years only to remember why we were estranged in the first place

• And I’d be remiss if I didn’t mention that I weighed in at my heaviest weight

So, it’s been a bit busy and I missed you all!! I missed this. I missed feeling relief when I finally put my thoughts into words and hit “publish”. I missed sharing my most innermost happenings with you all. Writing is truly a release, and let me tell you… I’d rather do that instead of drink a 1.5L bottle of wine every night (yes, I slipped back into that for a spell).

But I made it. Of course there were moments where I felt defeated, but I pushed through. I bounced back, and I honestly feel stronger. If there's one thing that I know, it's that I'll always get up from the wreckage.

2021 gave me a lot to think about, and this year I want to share some of that with you. And if I make you feel some type of way, well at this point, I don’t care. I'm really on my [see image].

Needless to say, thank you 2022! The opportunity you're offering to hit the reset button came right on time.

Love,

Autumn